"Beginning to think is to be undermined. Society has but little connection with such beginnings. The worm is in man's heart. That is where it must be sought. One must follow and understand this fatal game that leads from lucidity in the face of existence to flight from light."
"It often happens that those who commit suicide were assured of the meaning of life."
I'm trying to reoncile what I know of Sartre's idea's on perception and Camus's idea of the Absurd. They each seem all inclusive in themselves, inclusive of their own idea's as well as the rest of the world. But both deal with perception in a different way. Sartre is talking almost about the gears of a watch to Camus who is trying to tell the time. The only way I reconcile what I think of both is to think that, while Camus deny's it, his philosophy is metaphilosophy. That understanding the world through that perception of the Absurd applies only to those who understand. And it seems as if Camus unknowingly admits this, as anyone who cannot understand the Absurd is dead is dead in his mind. Literal death, suicide, or metaphorical death, hope. I'm not implying that Absurdism is a a means to hope, I do beleive that it stands on it's own. Imagine having a photograph, a memory, and being at the Grand Canyon. All three change your impressions of the others but by having a memory of the three phenomenon you know your perception has changed. Camus philosophy applies whenever you wake up from life and examine it for it is when you wake up that you deal with the absurd. Then one must either return to the pattern, kill oneself or deal with the Absurd and create meaning in the face of meaninglessness. But only when the idea of the Absurd is implanted in ones head can the cycle of Absurdity begin. It' like another vicious cycle, or mind game to play that take advantage of cathartic life moments. I quite liken it to the Allegory of the Cave. When one discovers the Absurdity of life they are not only exposed to the bright sun but ultimately doomed to toil in the shackles from where they had just broken free until such a day comes when the darkness sets in and Catharsis is possible once more. I imagine Camus's philosophy as implying a wisdom that is constantly and at one moment, infinite and freeing. And indeed, his use of the Myth of Sisyphus complete's his idea's whereas Sisyphus is always pushing the rock, it breaking, walking back, and then struggling once more. It seems to imply that no catharsis is ever infinite, but can in the future prevent you from experienceing the same cathartic path. Thus Sisyphus, the wisest and most daring man was sentenced to a life of complete and utter ignorance.